Sunday, May 31, 2009

Satisfactory, yet not enough to satisfy... WTH?

And so, I will now conclude this month LIFE EVENTS...

At the first week of the month, I have been busy with my "business", introducing and catching up with my mistakes last month and improving it... Yet, I don't know why... I felt so alone in this world, like I'm just the only one fighting for my cause... remorse, empathy enveloped me as I feel like I'm losing my purpose... felt like I'm the most Unlucky, Dumbest and Coward at the same time...

Lucky for me, I have a friend, partner and a mentor that always said to me, "Feeling down cannot make you stronger, regardless of hoping someone to pamper you or pity you, it will make you lack endurance and the same time make you more judgmental, in fact the one at fault is you!"

I feel "sentap" at this word as I relinquish my understanding...

Meaning 2 say, all of them want me to mix with the crowd, not judge them based on their "badness" but based on their "goodness"...

~_~

And so, the second week begins with positivity in mind... But to my surprise, it hadn't begin and end much to my expectations... Like the first week, I don't get the result that I wanted to... And for the first time in my life, I felt very "down" and I begin to question my inner self, "What is wrong here? I've done like everyone does, same technic, same spirit, same "statement" but yet I can't get what I wanted... WTH did I do wrong??"

T_T

Third week, begins with a training @ motivational @ "cas"...
I'm so PUMPED UP this week, that I'm the first person who stand up and the most HYPERest in the whole team! I just can't believe that after 2 weeks of grueling, intense pressure... I felt like I want to enjoy myself, my life and began "planning" with my partner how to overcome the obstacles, "Creative", so to speak.

^-^

This week or "Last" week, the plan has been set and the result has yet to be unfold. I understand now that, yes, we do as we foretold... but not "wholeheartedly" copy from others! I just realize eventhough the purpose, the target is the same, I just can't duplicate others, their journey and method! I must accomplish it based on my own perspective, knowledge, and GUT FEELING!! I have to follow my instinct and believe that all the wrong and true does not matter, for all is part of the journey...

Heh.

I think this blog were not meant to be read by others, as I know they don't know what I'm talking about...

WAKAKA!!!

"WTH... Go out with a bang!!" ~ Quote from Sincity.

p/s:
Sorry to Aiz and Fa... I know that both of you wanted me to copy badge or tag...
So next month, I will begin making post related from you or any other person that seems interesting and funny! And please don't fret, I will not "TEE-DOWN" any of the "subject"...

Heeeee....


Watched Movies:


Wanted to watch Terminator Salvation at first, but a VERY HUGE CROWD of TERMINATOR "NERD" blocking the way... preventing us to book tickets... T_T.
So, instead of feeling "...down...", we pick the alternatives instead.

Monsters vs Aliens!!
DAMN!! I wish I have one "adorable" monsters like this...

WAKAKA!!

3 comments:

FaFaFa said...

hahahahahahaha. GLO la hang niiiiiiiiiiiiii!

:))

bile2 pun bley bwat tag2 tuuuu. =3
alien monster tu... tak tgk lagi. nnt nak? hahaha. tet.
u wish u want that alien? cute ke dia? pfft.

-Fana- said...

nice quOte...

pak9 said...

fa: cet. org ajak hari2 dia xdak.
fana: ade apa meaning ke quote 2? heee

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