Sunday, May 31, 2009

Satisfactory, yet not enough to satisfy... WTH?

And so, I will now conclude this month LIFE EVENTS...

At the first week of the month, I have been busy with my "business", introducing and catching up with my mistakes last month and improving it... Yet, I don't know why... I felt so alone in this world, like I'm just the only one fighting for my cause... remorse, empathy enveloped me as I feel like I'm losing my purpose... felt like I'm the most Unlucky, Dumbest and Coward at the same time...

Lucky for me, I have a friend, partner and a mentor that always said to me, "Feeling down cannot make you stronger, regardless of hoping someone to pamper you or pity you, it will make you lack endurance and the same time make you more judgmental, in fact the one at fault is you!"

I feel "sentap" at this word as I relinquish my understanding...

Meaning 2 say, all of them want me to mix with the crowd, not judge them based on their "badness" but based on their "goodness"...


And so, the second week begins with positivity in mind... But to my surprise, it hadn't begin and end much to my expectations... Like the first week, I don't get the result that I wanted to... And for the first time in my life, I felt very "down" and I begin to question my inner self, "What is wrong here? I've done like everyone does, same technic, same spirit, same "statement" but yet I can't get what I wanted... WTH did I do wrong??"


Third week, begins with a training @ motivational @ "cas"...
I'm so PUMPED UP this week, that I'm the first person who stand up and the most HYPERest in the whole team! I just can't believe that after 2 weeks of grueling, intense pressure... I felt like I want to enjoy myself, my life and began "planning" with my partner how to overcome the obstacles, "Creative", so to speak.


This week or "Last" week, the plan has been set and the result has yet to be unfold. I understand now that, yes, we do as we foretold... but not "wholeheartedly" copy from others! I just realize eventhough the purpose, the target is the same, I just can't duplicate others, their journey and method! I must accomplish it based on my own perspective, knowledge, and GUT FEELING!! I have to follow my instinct and believe that all the wrong and true does not matter, for all is part of the journey...


I think this blog were not meant to be read by others, as I know they don't know what I'm talking about...


"WTH... Go out with a bang!!" ~ Quote from Sincity.

Sorry to Aiz and Fa... I know that both of you wanted me to copy badge or tag...
So next month, I will begin making post related from you or any other person that seems interesting and funny! And please don't fret, I will not "TEE-DOWN" any of the "subject"...


Watched Movies:

Wanted to watch Terminator Salvation at first, but a VERY HUGE CROWD of TERMINATOR "NERD" blocking the way... preventing us to book tickets... T_T.
So, instead of feeling "...down...", we pick the alternatives instead.

Monsters vs Aliens!!
DAMN!! I wish I have one "adorable" monsters like this...


Wednesday, May 27, 2009

A Stroll at Midvalley... and a bit of personality...


Yesterday, a bit of a meeting between two penguin and a handsome panda at MIDVALLEY led 2 a:

1. ate Japanese delicacy (though none of us ever try it before... eat first, question later)

2. Night At The Museum 2 Battle of The Smithsonian (interesting, I didn't see the first movie yet... T_T)

3. Take a peek at pet shop (want to survey ferret price, and realize that they are expensive contrary to that are much cheaper)

4. MPH Bookstore (wanted to buy one, but a tight budget and "nature's call" hinder the process...)

5. Stroll around MIDVALLEY with nothing on mind... (except growling stomach and an empty talk...)

6. Enter THE GARDEN (OMG!! I have entered a place that are so exclusive and yet I'm just wearing an ordinary "pasar malam croc"...)

7. Early dinner at Italiannies (did I spell it right? Nice restaurant, nice food, nice price, and a "not so nice timing"... I wish I go to this place with my parent's... and PASTA is MY FAVORITE!!! I WANT TO TRY MORE!!! WARGHHHH!!!!)

8. Parting of the Sensory (...just realize that Faiz and me didn't have a motor license but yet we just "buat xbersalah" and go on back to Shah Alam)

9. Picnic at the Side of the Road (at the most hectic, stressful, tawakkal, and lack of credit led us to rest a bit at one side of a road because we have to reply AN URGENT SMS that will change our future and life FOREVER!!! WARGHHH!!!)


10. Lepak at Kamal (a discussion with Faiz aka PenguinMarquis for a bit of post-mortem and a rehab with our stressful mind... STAY POSITIVE!!!)

The End.

...a bit short eh?

This is an excerpt from an article of "Shine from Yahoo!", telling us to avoid negative personality:

"Although we like to think that the people in our lives are well-adjusted, happy, healthy minded individuals, we sometimes realize that it just isn't so. Personally, I've had moments where I'll be skipping through my day, happy as can be, thinking life is grand and BAM, I'll be blindsided by someone who manages to knock the happy wind out of my sails. Sometimes it is easy to write it off and other times, not so much.

Maybe you are a positive person, but when you are around a certain individual, you feel negative. Or, maybe you have an idealistic view of the world and when you are with certain people, you are made to feel silly, unrealistic or delusional. Or, maybe you pride yourself in being completely independent and in control of your life, but when you are around a certain family member, you regress into a state of childhood.

Some of these situations, and yes, these people, can have a tremendously negative impact on our lives. And, although we are all human and have our 'issues,' some 'issues' are quite frankly, toxic. They are toxic to our happiness. They are toxic to our mental outlook. They are toxic to our self-esteem. And they are toxic to our lives. They can suck the life out of us and even shorten our lifespan.

Here are the worst of the toxic personalities out there and how to spot them:

1. Manipulative Mary: These individuals are experts at manipulation tactics. Is a matter of fact, you may not even realize you have been manipulated until it is too late. These individuals figure out what your 'buttons' are, and push them to get what they want.

  • Why they are toxic: These people have a way of eating away at your belief system and self-esteem. They find ways to make you do things that you don't necessarily want to do and before you know it, you lose your sense of identity, your personal priorities and your ability to see the reality of the situation. The world all of a sudden becomes centered around their needs and their priorities.

2. Narcissistic Nancy: These people have an extreme sense of self-importance and believe that the world revolves around them. They are often not as sly as the Manipulative Marys of the world, but instead, tend to be a bit overt about getting their needs met. You often want to say to them "It isn't always about you."

  • Why they are toxic: They are solely focused on their needs, leaving your needs in the dust. You are left disappointed and unfulfilled. Further, they zap your energy by getting you to focus so much on them, that you have nothing left for yourself.

3. Debbie Downers: These people can't appreciate the positive in life. If you tell them that it is a beautiful day, they will tell you about the impending dreary forecast. If you tell them you aced a mid-term, they'll tell you about how difficult the final is going to be.

  • Why they are toxic: They take the joy out of everything. Your rosy outlook on life continues to get squashed with negativity. Before you know it, their negativity consumes you and you start looking at things with gray colored glasses yourself.

4. Judgmental Jims: When you see things as cute and quirky, they see things as strange and unattractive. If you find people's unique perspectives refreshing, they find them 'wrong'. If you like someone's eclectic taste, they find it 'disturbing' or 'bad'.

  • Why they are toxic: Judgmental people are much like Debbie Downers. In a world where freedom rings, judgment is sooo over. If the world was a homogeneous place, life would be pretty boring. Spending a lot of time with these types can inadvertently convert you into a judgmental person as well.

5. Dream Killing Keiths: Every time you have an idea, these people tell you why you can't do it. As you achieve, they try to pull you down. As you dream, they are the first to tell you it is impossible.

  • Why they are toxic: These people are stuck in what is instead of what could be. Further, these individuals eat away at your self-esteem and your belief in yourself. Progress and change can only occur from doing new things and innovating, dreaming the impossible and reaching for the stars.

6. Insincere Illissas: You never quite feel that these people are being sincere. You tell a funny story, they give you a polite laugh. You feel depressed and sad and they give you a 'there, there' type response. You tell them you are excited about something and you get a very ho-hum response.

  • Why they are toxic: People who aren't sincere or genuine build relationships on superficial criteria. This breeds shallow, meaningless relationships. When you are really in need of a friend, they won't be there. When you really need constructive criticism, they would rather tell you that you are great the way you are. When you need support, they would rather see you fail or make a fool of yourself.

7. Disrespectful Dannys: These people will say or do things at the most inappropriate times and in the most inappropriate ways. In essence, they are more subtle, grown up bullies. Maybe this person is a friend who you confided in and uses your secret against you. Maybe it is a family member who puts their busy-body nose into your affairs when it is none of their business. Or maybe, it is a colleague who says demeaning things to you.

  • Why they are toxic: These people have no sense of boundaries and don't respect your feelings or, for that matter, your privacy. These people will cause you to feel frustrated and disrespected.

8. Never Enough Nellies: You can never give enough to these people to make them happy. They take you for granted and have unrealistic expectations of you. They find ways to continually fault you and never take responsibility for anything themselves.

  • Why they are toxic: You will spend so much time trying to please them, that you will end up losing yourself in the process. They will require all of your time and energy, leaving you worn out and your own needs sacrificed.

All of these personalities have several things in common. 1) the more these people get away with their behavior, the more they will continue. 2) Unfortunately, most of these people don't see that what they do is wrong and as a result, talking to them about it will fall on deaf ears, leaving you wondering if you are the crazy one. 3) Most of these people get worse with age, making their impact on you stronger with time.

Frankly, life is too short to spend your time dealing with toxicity. If you can, avoid spending mucho time with people who are indicative of these behaviors and you'll feel a lot happier. Have you encountered these personalities? What have you done? Any personalities you would add?"



Monday, May 25, 2009


...Its been so long...

...gazing at this blog....

...just realize that blogging is the same like writing diary...



For some reason there's a lot of things I want to right,

but I want to keep it short.

Yesterday at PEARL HOTEL, been doing some crazy dance...

..called CHICKEN DANCE...


I've been so "LEMAU" this week despite it should be


(plez sumbody, give me a suggestion on how to get real in lives!! The Reality just kept coming and I don't know @ clueless on how to proceed...)

and for some reason I'm ADDICTED to...


Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Good or Bad Experience Let to Great LIFE... o_0


I've read the book before, but when I see the LIVE ACTION,
its actually AMAZING and BREATHTAKING.

Before, I went to Penang to see an event there and feel the "HYPER"...

Man, even though the event is smaller than one in KL, the SPIRIT and DETERMINATION shown over there is GREAT and INSPIRING!!!

I also go there to see my good friends, Izhar, who work as an intern in MOTOROLA Penang. He is living with my old friends who was also a MOTOROLA employee,
Zack (Zulhelmi a.k.a Orang Kaya),
and Amar Hisham who also an intern in one of a company based at Seberang Jaya, Penang.


Great movies surely bring great thought behind it.
When we think about it, the movies such as "The Shawshank Redemption" and "The Pianist" makes us think that whatever things that lead us to this predicament, present, please don't blamed LIFE or PEOPLE to be cruel...

Or religion to that matter.

I like this statement from the movie,
"Religion is not perfect not because the religion, but the worshipper is people and people is not perfect."
(something like that... I can't remember the exact statement...)

I've read some interesting article about the Law of Attraction from The Secret,

"If you are looking for ways to be offended you will find it. If you are looking for ways to be loved or famous or friendly you will find them. Who do you associate with, what do you read, who do you talk about, what kind of things you sort for entertainment all play a role. When energy of love,cheerfulness,kindness, peace is brought into your problems then the problems cannot survive. Energy is the vehicle that you receive stuff on, so the energy you are sending out, look at that as rational with what you are receiving back in your life.

Why do you keep attracting that which you attract in your life and what can you do to attract something different in your life? Firstly take responsibility and accept all things in your life. Say to yourself I have been responsible for attracting all these things in my life and now I am going to work at it for a certain period of time of attracting something new in my life. It begins with thought, when you raise your energy then you impact those around you in new ways. Meditation slows down thought and raises your frequency and our energy body radiates out.

Be careful and don't give out lower energies like anger, shame, hatred,self-pity,hatred. If we radiate this out then we attract this back. If you react to these lower energies you create a magnified lower field. Instead of reacting, act with higher energy."



Saturday, May 16, 2009

2 choices can change your lives forever...

...My 2nd post...
Just can't believe that I'm involved in blogging... It feels different than just read other people's blog. I don't know if I have to be careful with my words, because many blogger tend to use their blog to speak out NEGATIVE opinion and OPENLY GIVE HATEFUL comment to others...

...and UNFORTUNATELY, people believed them.

In my opinion, blog is like ONE POINT of VIEW, its the same like you talking with other people.
For example:

When the first Lord Of The Rings come out, I didn't know what kind of film it is. I ask others who watched it... Out of 10 people, 7 people said that the film is bored and "to much talking"...

2 choices:

1. Ignore the film,
2. Ignore the people who watched it before...

I choose 2, and DAMNNNN....

WHAT A GREAT AND SPLENDID MOVIEEE!!!!! The movie also won many AWARDS and ACHIEVEMENTS that not so many can achieve...

Why I choose no.2?
First: I will not believe others word TILL I see it with my own eyes...
Second: What will happen if I didn't see it? Nothing changed and when others ask me about the movie, I don't like telling about OTHER PEOPLE experience... not with my own.

So, my message is DON'T TRUST opinion that is not your own. Trust YOURSELF in giving evaluation based on POSITIVE MIND, and research both two side of a coin...

It doesn't matter whether your evaluation is bad or good, true or lie... It is all part of the journey.
And please, to all the reader out there... do not take MY COMMENT @ OPINION wholeheartedly and make it a fact. Although human all the same in PHYSICAL, but our upbringing and MENTALITY that differentiate us from the people around us...

Recommended books:

Friday, May 15, 2009


Standard introduction:


I'm a newbie in blogging...

Just want to say that I make this blog to tell day to day stories...

...and my opinion about something.

So, please support me and give your comment sincerely; not biased and hateful comment."

WTH Introduction:

"HELLLOOOOOOO!!!!!! I just can't believe that IM INTO BLOGGINGGGG!!!
Before this, I'm always said that:
"I don't have time..."
"Don't have idea..."
"Blog is for NERDDDD..."

NOWW, just can't believe that after all this years...

I feel inspired to make a blog after a SOMEONE RICH THAN ME said to me:
"If you want to share something, don't be a fool trying to tell your journey by TALKINGG!!
Please be SMART!! You can SAVE UR TIME by using SMART WAY..."
Common Road vs Highway
Stairs vs Elevators
Talking vs Writing about it

SOOOO.... I choose to be smart, and

This blog was born..."

p/s: I have a blog before... but i forgot the password for my old account... and URL!!